Since last night... I have thought really hard into everything that has been going on in my life. Stuff that are both small and big. I realised that some stuff are meant to happen like when two good friend's ideals clash against each other, perhaps accepting that the friendship will take a turn for the worse and perhaps... not survive.

I have also realised that when stuff are not meant to work out, regardless of the reasons behind, it probably doesn't work out for a good reason. For the better half of the last 2 weeks, i think i been dreaming something which isnt possible, and figuring out how to change myself for that cause instead of changing for myself. Maybe in the end it is a "bonus" as someone once put it to me.

If anything coming to riverwood has taught me, is that I do not want to be the old me, gambling away and living it day by day... I like plans, organisation and ironically (given my home situation), stability more then ever since coming here. The more I think about it now... In many ways I want to become more mature about life, and start taking up responsibilities... Lol, yes You heard it right.

In fact i just gave my dad a call just to see how he is doing in Melbourne just then (no joke), if that means anything to any of you guys.

So ya... gonna look into my courses tomorrow and probably go and buy a shirt or something :)

Then monday popping to bas' to do bum around^^